life fucks you up in the wrong places mate! just when you think its ok now...things are going to get better..it goes back to the start...the Big Bang!! oh yes a new universe of problems which wont be annhilated with any anti-problems....no 'happy' energy here pal...it just sucks up all that you ever had..like a black hole for happiness...

i mean imagine...a universe full of sadness...only dark matter, about which we know nothing!! tat'd be so appropriate to explain my situation..no! no self pity here pal...its just a beggar with his broken bowl...

because no matter how much he begs and pleads..its never gonna stay..itll all go away...itll never stay...for he has a broken bowl, mind you, the bowl aint bad...but just a little broken..

why doesnt he change it?? thats because then he wouldnt be 'the beggar with a broken bowl'...so to exist, he needs his broken bowl...to flourish, he needs to do away with it, but then whats 'to flourish' if you cant even keep yourself as 'you'.

why am i saying this...i dont know...an outburst of locked up emotions..maybe...maybe not...

and remember...dont suppose..it hurts..sometimes...most of the times.